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Life seems to be quite dull lately. Has anyone notice this happening in their lives? I know I've been busy with things to do, but why does it seem dull? I know it probably has alot to do with my attitude. As a matter of fact, that would probably be the only factor. Hmm.. interesting.

On a seperate note.
Have you ever found yourself not questioning things in life that you should be? For example, questioning why a certain thing happens, rather than just accepting it. I've made some mistakes recently (what's new..?) but I haven't really questioned why. I would just pick myself up, say "oops" and continue on. Rather than thinking through why said event happened and try to think what I could've done better if it happens again, or what could I learn. I feel like somehow I'm becoming more caliced (sp?). Almost like my heart is being hardened. It's easy to say, "just don't!" But it feels like I need to find out what is causing this to happen before I can "just don't." I can feel it happening, but I don't know how to stop it. I know, I know.. I can pray, and that's great and all, but that doesn't get me to the root of the problem (unless God shows that to me, which he hasn't yet). I know there's been times where God will harden someone's heart for a particular reason. I guess I just hope that it won't lead me to where I'm chasing someone through a parted sea and get swallowed by the collapsing walls of water. I know that I'm not incredibly stubborn and I listen to reason and those who's words I respect and trust. Anyway.. work summons me back to the grind of my monday. I hope the rest of the week won't be as tasteless. Only God knows..