Re-Emergance

Well well well.. look whos back.

Yes, I have returned. My goal is to not tell anyone who frequented (very very few people... at least from my understanding) that I am back on here and blogging again.

Anyway, I am actually short on time, so I'll just jump into it...

Life... Life is interesting. Life is definitely not easy. As a matter of fact, it seems to get more difficult after each day that goes by. There's a lot that I still feel like I don't get, but should by now. One big thing is that the struggle of relationships is still ever present in my life. I guess my thing is that I'm still looking for someone that will accept me with the faults that I have. It seems that women are looking for the perfect guy that's got it all. Well, I guess I'm screwed cause' that definitely isn't me. I know what some would say here... "But Trust God!" And I do! And you can gather either by reading past blogs, or if you actually know me, I think into things WAAAY to much. I'm the kind of guy that pretty much needs verbal confirmation to kiss a girl. How lame is that?

Well, this is abrupt.. but I must go. Work summons.

God Bless!

Stop trying to fix me.... it's just who I am!!

seriously.. I have a hard time blogging regularly, I know! My take on it, is just be happy that you get to read a blog by me every few months!! ok, i'm just joking. but yes it has been a while.

Anyway, on to real things going on in my life. I'm finding more and more that I have a hard time fitting in with any group of people, socially, unless it's a group of people like me. what I mean by that, is that I have SSRD (stands for Slightly Socially Retarded Disorder). I've noticed that alot of people can just bring up some random thing and start talking about it and go on and on and on about it. I have a hard time doing that because it seems the things that I "randomly" bring up are unpopular or no one likes it or just ultimately can't relate to it. I blame this disorder I have on the 6 years of jr. high and high school. In jr. high, I was a big dude, and unpopular, so I didn't have many friends. So, my afternoons were filled with watching The Lion King and in later years (after eventually making some stoner friends) getting high.
I've taken some large "social" steps in recent years, however. But I guess I never looked at my tendancies and wondered why people respond to me in certain ways.
Anyhow, this is just more of a reflection on something I just realized. Ultimatly, God is good, gracious, and kind.

Until next time.. or next fall.....

BE BLESSED!!!!

Serious topic. Seriously! gosh....

I don't know what the title was all about... but moving on...

So, I'm moving from Spanish Springs into Sparks about 2 or 3 blocks from Kathrine Dunn Elementery this weekend. I'm actually really excited because I'll be living with 4 other guys closer to my age. It'll be interesting though, because well, I'm living with 4 other guys. (please pray for us)

On a different note, work is going great! I love my job and the people I work with are awesome.

I'm really excited for the summer! There's quite alot going on. I actually have 2 vacations planned, and not just "time off" but going to go actually vacation!!! I've never really had a vacation before, so I'm stoked! In July (for the 4th) I'm going up to Seattle with some friends and we get to hang out at a friend's parent's house where they have a boat and I think they said something about jet ski's or wave runners, but I don't remember. We're also going to check out Generation Church while we're up there and that'll be fun. The second trip will be in August and I'll be going to Mexico with a few close friends. I'm VERY excited about that one!!! A friend's parents have a house on the beach there, and we're literally going to go there and just RELAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway. That's the low down on the what's up in my life.

Oh, and as far as relationships go, yea there's someone that I like (still) but I'm almost to the point where I'm content where I'm at in life and if anything is to happen, it's because God lets it happen, not because of me making it happen.

Aight, well take care ya'll!

{P}eace

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Proverbs 31

*shock*
Drew put up a new post on his blog!!!! yes.. it's true. I'm not good at being consistent with blogging as I'm trying to make my online presense as little as possible. anyway.. moving to what I want to blog....

So, there's this chapter that totally talks about the "perfect" wife. I'm not writing this because I've 'found an new list' to look for in a wife. A few people in my life have recently rocked my world on my views on what to look for in a wife.

I wasn't ready for what I was told. Basically, the idea is not to be looking for traits in a woman before everything else. It's most important to make sure that you're preparing yourself for that wife. In other words, make sure you live a life that deserves to have a wife that is virtuous and capable, speaks words of wisdom, and is clothed with strength and dignity.

My goal is to be a husband that deserves these traits in a wife. It won't be an easy task, but I want to take this challenge on.

Ok.. why am I posting this?
Good question.
Because I have friends (i don't know about lately, cause of how long it's been since I last blogged) who I can trust to help me stay on this path.

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I just can't believe how blessed I am lately. I'm starting to really look at the things that I can often take for granted and give God thanks for it. Here's a cool verse:

Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again—my Savior and my God!

Psalm 42:11 NLT

Sometimes when I get down, I look at why, and it seems so small when I compare it to God and the freedom he offers me. There's another verse that says to take delight in Him and he will give you the desires of your heart. And another that says that nothing matters. The only really important thing is that we're living our life serving Him in what we say and do. It might be easy to say and think, but to do...

Worship Unleashed

I had an amazing experience last night. I went to worship practice last night.

My worship pastor, Kurt said some things that really beat on my heart. It's amazing how easily I can forget the faithfulness that God has to me. How he's always moving in my life. Sometimes I never even realize it, so I don't even give God glory for it. This goes on all the time. One of the points Kurt made was to never, ever, EVER forget the faithfulness of God.

He brought up some examples of other people going through struggles, and God showing up. Some of them in ways that were unexpected.

...to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge;
that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Now to Him who is able to do
exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think,
according to the power that works in us...

Ephesians 3:19-20

So, after Kurt's talk, we started worship practice. I was not ready for what transpired during practice. We started going through songs, and somethin' Kurt had said stuck in my head. He mentioned about how even though, since this is practice we may stop several times throughout a song, that we can still use this time to offer up worship and praise and not let anything disrupt the flow of our worship. I took it to heart, and when we got to a song called "Take All of Me" I just broke down. I'm usually not one to cry, especially when I'm drumming. But it was the most amazing and beautiful thing I've ever experienced. The whole song (which we never stopped during.. at least, I don't remember stopping) I had my eyes closed, and I could just feel the Spirit moving my hands and just taking over all of me. My heart was connected with God's heart like I've never experienced before in my life.

"I love you, all of my hope is in you. Jesus Christ, take my life, take all of me..."

Extremly powerful words. I pray that every worship experience from now on, results in that kind of connection.